A reminder

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MESSED UP AGAIN .

when you have so much in your head and heart, but you cant seem to do anything with it

a mind without a soul,a life without a meaning to smile.

The color full path seem to be faded, whats left is its memory of stain. 

i hate it when i logged in just to type this

and there goes the rain

Rain drops fall from the sky in the mist of night, my heart says ' Lets go out there, dance in the rain like nobody is watching you' , anticipating the raindrop fall on my umbrella is fascinating, why not we do this in a small MO one day, drips of rain land gracefully as the wind blew . Found myself soaked wet in the rain. Solitude, maybe that is what i felt when am trapped in between the rain. Its just me and the rain. The sound of water dripping and fall hard on rock, solitude.

I hate how women always expect a happy ending in every relationship, prince charming came-make them feel special and went off with a chariot one day. Is like we are so hopeless in every single things. We depend on them and worst the fear of being emotionally attached to one and found oneself in a grief of disappointment when one wake up from the sweet dream lullaby.We expect them to read every single mind of us and in return we tried to understand as much as we could about the Adam species.We tend to put on hope and true enough we found our self lost in direction without them. Who are them to us? We owe them our happiness? Happiness is in a package without hope . Without hope you wont get disappointment, and the best thing happen when we do not put on any expectation.Some common mistakes we tend to do with the hope. We misused them ! That is why we termed as girls speak in rhythm and boys in code.

Life is a waving feather, you do good and the goodness in you will remain till you do something bad and that is when you are a bad person to them till now and forever. I wish to divert from this norm perception. Time changes how a person think.


and so do the rain stop, time to switch off the light and sleep.

Someday We'll know

"That's what we do, we FIGHT! You tell me when I'm being an arrogant son of a bitch and I tell you when you're being a pain in the ASS, which you are 99% of the time. I'm not afraid to HURT your feelings. You have like a 2 second rebound rate and you're back doing the next pain in the ass thing. So it's not gonna be easy. It's gonna be really hard and we're gonna have to work at this everyday. But I wanna do that because I want you, I want all of you, forever, you& me , everyday." - Noah (THE NOTEBOOK)

BlackOUT

Hey peeps, and Hey its already the last day of MARCH! which marks today as the earth hour in every country and starts sharp at 20:00-21:30. Time flies and proooofffs its the end of the first quarter of the year and say hay-LOO to APRIL. *Finger cross* and i don't wanna be the victim of April fool this year. ' Ignite the life and let it shine' -well that is what Katty perry sing in her FIREWORK, [boom -boom- boom, even brighter than the moon-moon ] :) i always find that her head is much bigger than her body is like they are not proportional and her head stand out the most ,not her blue or pink hair.

La taadaa raa taa taa-laa laa taa taa-Saturday afternoon and am stuck in my tinnie tiny room doing nothing but wasting my golden precious minute thinking what life has to offer me in future.
Woke up from my bed today with pretty much the same kinda feeling i had for weeks, stretched my turquoise curtain widely which remind me of the government hospital curtain, look out at the road outside my house and its the same lane with the same room and window facing me. i know what should i expect' lane and road and house dont move from place to place!duhh' anywho! am pretty much stuck in my day dream , make myself french toast for lunch ,a cup of milo and apple for just balancing up the meal.Mummy send me a bottle of vitamin and she strictly force me to take one each day for the fear of me getting bald, so yeaa, been loosing my hair lately especially when i comb them.

I was back in my hometown for three consecutive week and this time i finally find my perfect heel i get from PAYLESS. Best part of it they are on 50% discount, tried it on, and i grab the little brown one that i adore, most important part when choosing a heel i must be balance when i walk on it, you know how clumsy i get when am nervous. Grab two pair of heels and they fit me perfectly with my skinny jean:) Hooray and i've been stuck with this big brown bag if lately, it get pretty bored and the best part what i love about big bag is you can pretty chuck everything you want in the bag! got myself a reddish brown bag and vohlaa! they suit my brown heel well :) Basically went to Sunway with mummy to finish off my remaining 100bucks voucher, bought a super bike pocket dictionary for dady and women mag for mummy and got some Eastern European travel book for myself and a Cecelia ahern book, ( having all her books now in my shelves) and the remaining i spend it on stationary and some art stuff for my campaign. SO that is how my shopping story goes. -GIRLS and SHOPPING, if you manage to separate both of them , then you be likely to have the luck to separate Tarzan and Jane, Minnie and Mickey or Donald duck and Daisy duck .

I cycled most of day to campus, AND YESS! i love cycling:) wee wee! cycle while listening to my mp3 that my darling boyfriend gave me for my 23rd birthday. Cycle is fun in the morning with the morning fresh air and the cooling wind touches your cheek and blowing your hair.I know i sound like a dork! cycling to campus in the morning is a nice stuff to kick the day with. Enjoying my gummy bears that my brother and his gf got for as my birthday gift in a purple water bottle and damn! they are so freaking addictive, think i had like 7 so far for the day -its written fat free on the plastic packet but they are ain't sugar free, and they taste so juicy and gummy .FYI they are apple flavors. Talking about birthday gift, i reckon something very usual you do as you grow older. Birthday is just another day in your life and cake and candles is optional , having them on the table is like reminding you all the goal and dream that you haven't achieve but your getting older and time waits for no one. I figure out something, people tend to be secretive bout their age as they grow older and wiser. For instance you don't want the public to know that your 23 , and still unemployed, depending on your FAME finance and etc etc or your now 30 and your stuck with the same company where they dint even offer you a raise. So that is part of life, i guess its much appropriate to not to reveal your age except being asked. In that case, that remind me to change my email address to something else, i have no idea why i put the year i was born in my email address when i was in my teen year.haha

I have this pile of clothes in my laundry basket and i haven't even got the time and mood to wash them clean. I know you called me a lazy lady woman! hahaa, indeed i am and am not gonna be all hypocritical saying that am always hardworking 24/7 .Sometime i wish to have a disposable clothes that you wear and throw them instead!joking* jokes only kay. I'll get them done later , just feeling a bit lazy lately.The lazy feeling that you just wanna be in bed with 3 pillows and my booster and a comforter on. I have the urge of doing nothing at all for this past three weeks and i know it is very very very bad for me. Anyway, read this Eastern European travel book that i got from popular on Thursday 4 in the morn( yesh... im a night owl' insomnic you named me' haha and i get some interesting fact

Didya know that the Bulgarian nods their head when they say no and shakes their head when they mean yeeeessss! interesting ain't that? human tend to do stuff the opposite way you see probably they got bored of following what others been doing.Friday class finished at 12pm so you as you can see below, i got nothing else better to do, and im BORED! says its been 2 years i stop cam-woring myself in my room and there you go, i start doing it again.




Caption 1 #You dowana messed up with me( seriously)


Caption 2 # I know i have a big beautiful nice seductive eyes!and i mean it !i dont have to wear falsie and double eye lids sticker or whatever you called em.haha
Caption 3 # am self obsessed! ohh, you just discovered it today. awwwuch! awww and aouch
Caption 4 # i dont have to put on make up to be 'pretty' , i just have to take picture at the right angle! bleuks :P
Caption 5 # i dont have to hide my forehead , i know i look like indon , so whaaaaat if i dont look like a typical Chinese girl you see at your next door.
Caption 6 # am hungry and where is my fooooooooood :(
Caption 7 # oh! you dare mess with me, see i messed up my hair and give you that monkey face instead :P

Out-a-sight

'but its only when i sleep, see you in my dream
got me spinning round round, turning me upside down'
hate the feeling of waking up on 14th February with a tummy pain
such a long long day of simply wasting my time doing nothing at all
been hooking up with melanie c and bryan adam in this wee hour
i like the line' even food don't taste that good, things just been so wrong, when your gone'
i wonder why on earth i do recall all my childhood memories and school memories i had so well
but when it come to recalling my notes that i studied before my exam, i had hard time of recalling any.

Anyway those were the late post that i dint hit the publish post button
basically i just lost interest in the things that i love to do , more like a laid back person and i dont care how others feel or think why i behave in such a way.



i wanna do this again where things are so easy in life. life is so easy. and everybody is just losing control doing fun thing whole night! hahaha, fooling ourselves and getting in a vertigo state of mind where impossible dont exist, we lost track of time and day but there is nothing to be worried. Its just you and your friends saying stupid things and sharing dark secret whole night! gaaah! Anyway i always have thing on tatoo , bacically tatoo on my body cage rib saying something about my life, get myself ink one day-well that is what i always wanted before. Earn 5 digits a month and shop till i drop, live in a condominium enjoying life and going places that i always wanted to go. Spend a weekend in some island , sun bathing with a bikini and having my pina colada drink in my hand , dancing with those jazz music of the waves breeze.

I know i been out-a-sight for months now, but i promised that it wont be too long, i shall return when i completed my important things that i have to prioritize. Getting myself back to serious business and yea, i changed-for BETTER :)

friggatriskaidekaphobia

Pantai Chenang/Langkawi-oceansizelove

It is 13 days after New Year , means hello 2012

13 days after New Year without a new year resolution

What is this? day 13 at home not having any direction in life

Friday the 13th , freakish friday , home alone, using Christopher's lappy

listening to trees- marty casey [youtubing]

aimless-ly staring at the home ceiling , no contribution or achievement in life

and figuring out how to begin this life again with? when i have to start from square one

- turning point in life where i have to press the restart button-

reflection after reflection and not finding what i want in life.

one word on friday the 13th 2012: a big FRUSTRATION.

in the mid of frustration, you tubing aimlessly and found this song that suit my current mood

disappointment frustration

Ushering New Year

Changi Singapore airport 29122010: Watching the aeroplane landing is peaceful


Oldchurch 29112010: Reflection: Blessed: Prayed: Answered


New year, a year has gone by and a new year with new beginning has sail in
say la vie 2011,

Auld Lang Syne my friend

As time goes by - well thats is the translation to the above
as i look back a year ago, i think i said enough what i wanna say
Enough :) fix you : fix me- you try so hard and you dont succeed
having my hot green tea on 3rd of January of 2012 on a good morning
the sunshine ray shine across the door and lighten up the staircase
i love the morning feeling where you wake up and feel like a new beginning
a new hope and a new life, the smell of the morning breakfast on the table
the fragrant of a new curtain and couch of floral bouquet
sound of the bird chirping and singing from my room window

Looking back those time, i rather say myself as i haven't accomplish any of my goals.Yes, i know i did set a few new year resolution every years, and they ended up as being a pretty new year resolution lying hanging in the air, as i don't stick long enough to it am gonna be 23 in 2 more months, and i bet there is alot of things that gonna change my life in this 2 weeks i assume, there is gonna be a lot of goodbyessss , tears, regrets , and think of all the wasted time i invest in.

Angel of mercy : where did you find me: did you even read my story?

I know its a bit of too late again.i know i used to be smart , Goooosssh, where did i go wrong again this time.Time for new plan , reorganization and a better financial planning ahead.

-Time for miracle 2012-
Adam Lambert