Its My LIFE. Why do you even give a damn when you don't have one?

Thursday, August 11, 2011

Now she speaks



30072011-the oldest protestant cemetery in penang(1789-1892)

Misery torn ed me apart and swallow the deepest happiest symphony of mine
Pretending to be so far beyond fine from the surface
Yet am so fragile and it all fall apart from tumbling in the inside
Tripped and trapped into a deep emotion hollow of mine
I shouted, I laughed, I giggle, I lied, I was a person
that is what i am once upon a time
Now whats left behind is a
suitcase filled with memory
I creep-ed, I crawled , I begged
I wish to spread my wings in sudden flights of fancy
yet i fall behind every time i tried to get up and move
as if there is a hindrance that been obstruct my tough
watching through window, and everything seem to be same
Nothing change and there goes my very self pity and sympathy
Alone has been my darkest shadow that shielded colorful array sunshine
Loneliness sometime seem to be my very own enemy of darkness fear
Empty words never meant to be this half spoken


Enough of the ohhly crap! i been in this hall of 'FAME' of mine for quite sometime now
It attacked me all of sudden especially when am alone in this room with nothing to do
pretty much to do actually, its just suck alot to think of it over and over again when somehow people dont think of you that much as you though of them. Women's nature( sigh , biggest weakness and defect in us)Even little thing i get annoyed and agitated to now,I though i am so prepared and ever ready to face the biggest challege in life but it all fall down like a deck of dominoes.I have so much to write in life and finally i wrote THIS? very little pathetic piece of mine. I should start get my very own life back! and i wonder every time i said something like that, nothing happen and am back to square one.

Anyway, decided what i wanna have after graduation, a tattoo on my neck for sure,with some italic words that meant a thousand journey in my life shall be engrave in some hidden body part of mine.

Picture of the extravaganza carnival, i was called up to be the usher again and this time i was in a white cheongsam ( picture shall be up in the next post) as FYI me and cheongsam never a click

Traditional vs modern( henna on my hand ) traditional indian tatoo art on my hand


hahah, and got myself a fake tatoo for a suka suka thing, symbol is not realy my thing but yea, i gave a shot on that.

Looking for a study mode weekend in Kampar as i make my decision to stay put here and work my lazy bump out and strive hard for final. Its hard to do that as i get distracted when am back in my hometown and can somebody prescribe be with a medication to GET OVER WITH IT? off to my lullaby dreamland in awhile.
-am out.


Saturday, August 6, 2011

Chasing car

nothing is real till its gone
Chasing car
as if the sky had blown the heavens into stars
sky is a souvenir that you never knew

Penang bridge
Penang people called it Passembur, guess what, my kl friend named it rojak
the great o-chien or fried osyter at gurney drive
sunny checked, beach here we come
Unfortunately when we got to the beach, it was already pitch black

'Lets waste time, chasing car, around our head'-snow petrol
We been chasing car for far too long now, and it was a great escape
was a very great escape and indeed is one of my very late delayed post

Transformer tickets were all sold out in Ipoh( sadly) ticket was selling fast like hotcakes
Come up with a crazy idea of hopping on a crazy road trip to watch transformer Dark of the moon and indeed it was worth to travel all the way up to north
exhilarating exhausted but exciting and extreme madness
i miss home and i got back to my hometown to watch transformer
massive road jams before reaching bukit merah
and we marked 3th July as road pussam day
Arrived at Gurney plaza to purchase our 4 pieces of precious transformer tickets
had our dinner at Gurney drive and headed to the beach at batu ferrighi
and shop at the long pasar malam along the way
blonde barbie in the movie is hot, one of the best transformer i watched
However blonde barbie can never replace Megan fox
Along the jouney, hitz.fm totally spoil 'on the floor'-jlo and 'party rock anthem song' LMFAO
wonder why the radio station have to kill good music by playing them over and over
till we feel like puking whenever we listen to both song
and I do get bored with RNB songs easily because the chorus is repeated many times


back to transformer,
i always have an ear for the movie soundtrack
because they never fail to impress me
my all time favorite will still be-goo goo dolls: before its too late

My current will be:
linkin park

Iridescent:

Do you feel cold and lost in desperation
you build up all the failures all you've known
remember all the sadness and frustration
and let it go, LET IT GO.

Tuesday, August 2, 2011

Bottom of my core heart speaks

I must admit that i have been too busy to update all the interesting events that happen around me lately, and i must say i pretty enjoy the time i spend together with my friend in kampar rather than goin back to my very own place in penang. Current obsession is gotta be the BIG BANG THEORY- blame it on matthew and cheryl for introducing such a good laugh series to me, a nerdy geeky scientific funny type.
am now on season 2 episode 4, and am enjoying and liking the geeky personality in Sheldon

Before i even go anywhere further here's some post that got over delayed
1. Singapore trips to Aunt Anna place for two weeks on 24december till 7th jan- practically spend my entire Christmas and new year eve celebration in Singapore for the first time rather in malaysia
2.Nidya darling birthday pictures and the detail of it
3. Darling Trishal's 22nd birthday in First love-sasy green with envy
4. Back to back movie trips with cheryl , trishal, and swee yee at ipoh parade- we watched x-men and kung fu panda on wednesday night :)
5.Detail on Convent school canteen day -its good to be back after 5 years being away from school
6.Crazy transformer trip-Hell, a crazy night out
7.Asian cultural night-epic one , gotta wait for this
8.Penang trip with 4 awesome friends-homesweethome finally

am suppose to be busy with my final year project proposal , pharmacology lab test , virology lab reports, virology field trips.I get distracted easily and my time management is pretty bad for this semester, been caugh up with too much of workload lately till i reached a point that i couldnt be bother to start doing them early and waiting for a day to reach the dateline and then i suppose i will start typing and figured stuff out. Holly crap! final is in 4 weeks from now and my notes is not updated since week 4 or week 5. Too much of crap subject this semester with make no sence subject such as medical genomic-basically its about bioinformatic stuff,and too much of lecture cancelled for oncology and pharmacology. Enough of studies, i dont really blaa much bout study but i guess i should start study for FINAL now .I have this crazy plan of studying in my home sweet home for the study week rather than studying in kampar and get stress , i need to adjust to proper food and sleep because if i happen to stay here, am gonna be rot with instant noodles and sleepless night. Have to meet my academic advisor and get things done before next week.

Enough crap of my study sick lazy stuff, am gonna be sick and sleepy like a zombie tomorrow with a white cheongsam on serving the vip for the asian cultural carnival but my body just refused to sleep although the time is showing 4.30ish now, and i have to wake up at 6am in the morning to get ready. Me with a cheongsam will never be a click because i dint have that Chinese look on my face after all.

Get this message from body shop via digi this morning and they are having 50% off on Aqua lily Eau De Toilette 30ml (normal price is RM55) till 31st August for digi customer only.I was like yeaaah! i wanna get them soon when i have the extra cash. I learn something lately, when you dont have money in the wallet , you will learn to appreciate good thing in life more, and is an effective way for me to lose weight :) apparently i dont spend much on food and have 1 meal per day if my financial is a bit tight. In a way, i learn to be dependent on whatever source i have.

wait, this post is suppose to be from the bottom of my core heart speaks aint it? hahahhaa
i observed something, people tend to write on their relationsh**t problem once they have problem or at the edge of a burning fire where both parties had already spilt, which the part they get emo and blame on each other and hurt each other in their blog

i found that simply and super ridiculous! GROW UP!and blogging your relationsh**t problem will not solve anything it will only worsen the condition by getting both party hurt.( am speaking of the pass ever since i used friendster) seriosly , it aint cool to do that people. Oh i did remember something even cooler :
You turned out to be the best thing I never had
And I'm gon' always be the best thing you never had
-Beyonce-best thing i never had

Monday, July 18, 2011

MTV WORLD STAGE live in MALAYSIA 2011

MTV world stage live in Malaysia on 24th July 2011





Beast , the K-pop band form since 2009 from south Korea which consists of
Yoon Du Jun, Jang Hyun Seung, Yong Jun Hyung, Yang Yo Seob, Lee Gi Kwang, Son Dong Woon.
cool wallpaper aint it. regretted why i don't pursue my study in graphic design instead.
30 seconds to MARS
One of the main reason i wanna be in this year MTV world stage
neon tree-the band that give us ANIMAL
and my favourite song will be: farther down


and our very own
POP shuvit: marabahaya
With their unique name which consist of Moots! (vocals), JD (guitar), AJ (bass), Rudy (drums) and Uno (turntables) definitely one of Malaysia's best hip-hop/rock band.

MTV WORLD STAGE live in i-city Shah Alam on 24th of July 2011
and Godknowswhy, i wanna go to this year MTV world stage badly
Most probably because:

30Secs from mars and Neon Tree will be performing this year

failed to get the FREE tickets from :http://worldstage.mtvasia.com/home.php
Tried a gazillion xxxx and yet failed to open the correct briefcase
( count every 10 minutes that somebody open the correct briefcase , so i use my probability maths formula to solve the equation, and its proven my maths is BAD)HAHAHA
Then i found out that hitz.fm is giving away free passes but couldnt get through the call
Found that THE STAR newspaper is giving away free passes too, just have to collect 1 week cut out of the MTV world stage coupon from the newspaper and redeem them at i-city on wednesday
and then i realize, dad's birthday is on 24th of July
so i will be heading back to penang after 1 month of endless workload,midterm,assignments,role play in UTAR, kampar.

[i wanna take you to the star, and then i'll leave you alone]
'On a couch in a cold room
Pouring salt in my wounds
I'm a mistake faking truth holding liars balloons'
farther down: neon tree

Sunday, July 10, 2011

India

I.N.DIA: incredible nice dance in awesomeness ( A PLACE where i wanna be right now)
My sudden desire to be fly to India sparks when am listening to this song in my lap top
latika's theme-by A.R RAHMAN
One of the amazing sound track from Slum dog millionaire.

Why do i played this song again and again? i certainly feel some beautiful connection with it
It is just something about this song that makes it so special, beautiful voice of the lady who do not utter a single words but she hums so beautifully in Latika that makes me so calm and relax. It makes me realize that:It takes.....

' A second to have a crush on someone, a minutes to ask' who are you', an hour to have a drink and get to know each other better, a day to miss that someone, a week to fall in love, a month to start a relationship,a year to get bored with each other and a lifetime to forget someone so special that walk away and turn you down'

FYI: Latika is a leading female role which is acted by gorgeous Freida Pinto in Slumdog Millionaire.

India is famous for its colorful culture, cricket,spices and film ( bollywood)
In fact,the name such as Mahatma Gadhi which create a phenomenon in the political world
inspired others includes myself with his famous quote.
How do i know India? the answer to this is when
I started to watch Bollywood movies when am 6
and my all time favourite will be Kuch Kuch Hota hai
Its about how a beautiful friendship evolve into relationship.
Had that vcd at my home and i remembered watching it more than 7 times
It all started during my study years in convent primary school
My tablemate is so seriosly crazy in love with Bollywood actors
We listened to THR and get the lyric from local magazine and start singing them.
Dil to pagal hai, ka ho na pyiar hai, mast, asoka, chori chori cumke cumke(pardon me, cant get the spelling right :/
and now my latest obsession will be the 3 IDIOT
Well, those were the days..

If i were to be in India, i will be


1] Enjoying myself at the Holi Festival

The main day, Holi, also known as Dhuli Vandana in Sanskrit, also Dhulheti, Dhulandi or Dhulendi, is celebrated by people throwing coloured powder and coloured water at each other. It is celebrated at the end of the winter season on the last full moon day of the lunar month (February/March), which usually falls in the later part of February or March.

2. Visit Kathmandu, Nepal and go for backpacking

3. Travel to Kashmir and get to know the local folks there.
4] Ganges river- The Ganges is the most sacred river to Hindus and is also a lifeline to millions of Indians who live along its course and depend on it for their daily needs. It is listed as the 5th polluted river in the world.

4] Taj Mahal- One of the most iconic true love story ever told. One of the seven wonders of the world that has to be in Asia.

5] Goa-Sunbathing and white sandy beach :)with flip flop and summer dress and hat


Anyway, me and my darling Trishal will be attending the Utar Asian Cultural Night which will be held next week on July the 16th on Saturday. Am gonna be in black saree this year, and am looking forward and so super excited to wear saree, its gonna be a fun weekend figuring out ourself how to tie a proper saree in you tube. hahaa


This is the picture we took together at last year ACS night, Gonna look for futuristic performance this year. ACS night here i come :)

Sunday, June 26, 2011

The Journey

06082010/1400pm-Kek lo si temple, Penang.

Journey
is never straight
It is
'crooked , twisted , with ups and down'
No matter how straight you drew a line to plan
There is always a rocky ride and bumper road.

Am currently so hooked up with party rock anthem-FMAO
Basically this song makes me loose my mind, pumped in so many blood to my aorta
Generate so many neuron to articulate my bones and move
Insanity strikes me again. Duh!
Like i am always ' sane'

Lets just recap stuff-that-i-need- that-makes my life incomplete recently

1.Goodbye to my 016 number( 7years of being my best company)
peeps, dont contact me with that number anymore because it is currenly undergoing an inactivated sim mode.
2.Goodbye to you my sayang sony erickson phone* died after i dropped it tonnes of time on the floor,and i realize i dont take my own picture anymore, no more camwhore, i put a stop of being a narcissism for the mean time.
3.HP Printer is resting under my bed collecting dust because no more ink, and i need buy the ink cartridge which burn a hole in my pocket like 55 bucks for a black ink which last me half of the semester.(not worth it)
4.Money. its all about money ka*ching ka*ching- its proven with my hair, no more rebornding.

Like i always do, i looked at the opposite side of my grieving stuff and find a solution for it.

1.I have 2 numbers, so when the other one stop functioning, i depend on the back up( digi campus is always the smarter choice for college student)
2. Sayang Sony is being replaced with my second cute phone which i normally use for other number. and it has amazing features like a torchlight and nice big keypad to sms:) so what if others are using i phone, i have nokia and i dont have to worry that if i drop my phone a million time again and it is tested water resistant :) bout the camera part , i have my olympus digital camera so i can still takes lotsa pictures with my buddies
3.Print outside at high speed or just gonna modify my printer to the external printer when i have the extra cash.
4.Forget about rebornding, am gonna try curl it instead, mah natural hair is wavy. so am gonna just grow my hair long and curl em.If am having a bad hair day, tied em in a bun ! Part time job is always available out there, too bad they pay kinda low at kampar compared to the normal rate i been paid in Penang

Work for like 4 days as a Pc fair promoter at westlake, my cute roomie introduced to me that job.I am paid 5 bucks an hour excluded the commission. Gain around 158 bucks and manage to get a few stuff that i wanna get for ages:
1.New pursue because the old blue torn- so now you know why am always broke with a torn pursue.hahaa
2.Present for daddy for father's day
3.Maybeline two way cake foundation powder compact ( was on promo item in watson)
4.Neon Green nail polish( damn) and am lovin it

I have class from 10am-8pm, gonna crash my bed soon. Full update on Trishal's birthday coming up on next post. 2 labs report to finish off and Final year project to crack my head on. Busy week ahead but hack it!hahaha. i can survive and i will finish them on time :)

Quote of the day:' When you dont have stuff that you want, do not frowned, Improvised and work it like they are new :)

Monday, June 13, 2011

Again and Hellcats


Again-Bruno mars /Natasha bedingfield

Natasha and Bruno said:
I just want to stay in bed and sleep the whole day
Hands over my head, thinking what goes wrong
Wouldn’t stay in bed, how can the day seem so long
Never believe things happen for a reason.

i said:Am delusional, living in this world of illusion

Addicted to this remix, and been listen to it over and over again. Hell yeah,Its been a month and i still do listen.

Anywho, enough of the emo thing above,Year 3 trisemester 1 had just started, and i been too caught up with workloads lately.Haven't have much thing to be updated.

Guess what i been doing lately

HELLCATS

Guys, you gotta catch up the whole series yourself, I just cant get enough of the hellcats. At first i expected this series to be bimbo-fied but it turn out that am so wrong. Hellcats is all about college student who dream, aspire, dedicated thier whole life to be cheerleader and win national. Memphis is a town where the Lancer university Hellcats were born . Its all about life, family,friendships, sports, dedication and love.




Check her out! i find that she is the hawtess among all the hellcats members,Heather Hemmens as Alice in HELLCATS


Aly Michalka as Marti in HELLCATS ,AJ Michalka as Deirdre from Aly and Aj( the one who gave us the potential break up song)


Ashley Tisdale as Savannah

In contrast to our education, we emphasize more on our acaedemic performance rather than sport. Well, its so much different in states, where if a student do well in the sports field such football, volleyball , cheer squad and win national, they are entitle to get full scholarship.Different form our country where most of us depends on ptptn or JPA scholarship based only on our academic performance and family income. We prepared so much forms and undergo so many process for the approval of ptptn to be certified by the officer. At the end of the day, the government will start hunt down those graduated student to pay for their ptptn debts.

Sad to say, UTAR is all academic base and profit university, sports is just a side curriculum you get to write in your resume and attain soft skill marks. I don't get to see where is this going? Sports play important role in many aspect, we have facilities , but do student get full scholarship or tuition fees is fully funded by UTAR if student do win competition in final. I don't know, all i know is , student in my university is so concern about cgpa.

Here's the reason i drawn out based on my experience:

If you don't do well in your final, you will be in probation next semester
If you're under probation, no ptptn loan so you need to figure out how to pay those fees yourself
If you're still under probation for second time, you will be undergo termination
If you're undergo termination, you have the right to appeal with 100bucks of admin fees
Another thing, if your under probation, there is a minimum credit hours that you can register meaning you have to drop one credit subject and take it next semester
In other words, you will have to extend your study here.

So, here is why UTAR student is so much concern about cgpa.
If your cgpa is above 3.5 , Good news you may not have to pay the loan, it will be fully funded by the government.

UTAR-my choice :)




Thursday, May 19, 2011

A peek-a Boo whats in the zoo negara

My favorite animal of all: Sexy giraffes

12th May 2011
Boarded a train from Bukit Mertajam train station to kl central at 8am

Here's a few reason why i rather travel by a train

  • We have to go to the loo when the nature call( there is always a toilet in every coach )
  • Smoking room is provided for the smokers out there
  • Train is the oldest transportation in Malaysia which travel from north to south ( Singapore all the way to Butterworth, Penang) 151 years ! Way to go KTM
  • High accident rate on the road, that's why i rather track with the rail way.
  • Always a friendly train staff who sell food , they push the trolley and says' makan, minum'
  • Walk from a coach to another coach when your leg cramps, or your just do that because you get too bored
The KTM ( kereta api tanah melayu) was delayed for almost 20minutes and i waited with my mum
Its gonna be a long journey alone with no mp3 and this month cleo mag is all i had in my bag
2 curry puff leftover from the breakfast and 2 granny sitting the same coach as me.
Looking out the window , saw lotsa houses and the Garuda holding project
They are busy catching up times to build the electric train track from Ipoh all the way up to the north
I'm amazed with the scenery the ride has to offer
Especially the part after the Bukit merah station, the train went through this
place where it looks like as if the train is floating on a beautiful lake.
Went through several tunnels and were taken aback with the greenery
Reached KL central around 2.30pm and waited at platform 5 for the ktm komuter train to klang

Well here's the part where i got lost a lil bit
was so worry to find where is platform 5
till i queue up at the wrong lane for touch and go card
(kebodohan)

Then the worst part of all ( extreme kebodohan yang melampau)
i never pay attention where to get down
Darling trishal repeated so many times
i'll pick ya up at Teluk Gadung
and i repeated ask her so many many times
how many station from central
omg! i got down at Teluk Pulai
Never knows there are 2 teluks there
i got extremely super excited when i saw the first teluk!
dint bother to read the behind word..
Thank God, Trishal's dad is so kind to pick me up here.
We went for a swim at trishal's kondo
Well, eventually was only Trishal and Anand swimming
because am more like walking in the swimming pool.
had scrumptious dinner with Trishal and her family and
i must say this again
'thank you uncle and auntie' for bringing us out to eat.
The good side of Klang, everybody well, most of them speak Hokkien ,
which is the only Chinese language that i speak and understand.


13th May 2011
Its Friday the 13th and the fear of Friday the 13th is known as
Friggatriskaidekaphobia.
Some people do believe if the 13 fall on a Friday it brings bad luck and unlucky day
Well, i challenge Friday the 13th! and it was not that bad day after all
Had great time and nothing unlucky happen so far
Took the train to central from teluk gadung
Sok yee at central and we had lunch at kenny rogers
and from there we take a monorail to Wangsamaju and met Ezra.
i did bump into few familiar faces in Kl central such as Andrew, Hong Kin and some juniors
They just got back from a trip from Malacca
and bump into Nicole my housemate.
From Wangsamaju we took a cab to Zoo Negara which cost us about 8 bucks

Muffin, banana and chocolate chips, but i still prefer the vanilla one :)

My darling Trishal with her new camera

Sok yee 's waiting for her mac and cheese

Say hello to Zoo negara!
Entrance fee:
For malaysian: RM25
For non malaysian: RM 25
For college student: RM 25
( sad case la ryte, no discount for big student like us)

Some part of the zoo where they had this resting hut in between the ape 's cage

My familia ( we are one big happy family)
Sweet couple

Random
Anand bagau-ing!

Kura kura for perlumbaan kedua( some komsas sastera we learn during our Secondary year)

For the first time i look taller than darling trishal in this pic!hehehee
Flamingo
say hello to Mr hippo and he is busy lazying in his pond
ape( taa taa is in the zoo) he looks so sedih when we visit him
Us ( sok yee, trishal and me)
Ezra and trishal busy looking whats in the cage
Mua and sok yee
Me and thosai( he is always taller than me! unfair!)
The roof of the bee house

Guess what, this might sound ridiculous
but they charge 2 bucks for the map! RM 2 for a zoo map
Should be provided free when we pay the entrance fee
Sad to say the animal is not well maintain
Some are not properly fed and clean
The cage is smelly * yucks
Grass is not properly cut
Some animal were hidden in between the grasses
The sign board and the information they provided is not updated
The sign board is just too old, the colours were all faded
Wonder what they did with our RM25 buck
Since they have community service every week
Student volunteer them self from some college
to clean the animal's poo poo and drain and
Fed the hungry animal.


ooh, this is how a giraffes's poo poo looks like, kinda rounded aiyte

Far from what i expected,
I would said, Taiping zoo is much better than the national zoo
We miss the animal show
but shhsssss. we had better elephant show to watch :o)

Kinda remind me of the elephant i watch in eat pray & love but now darling Trishal is still
traumatized with the elephant.hahah


Yellow bin! i dont know why i feel so yellow and sad when i took this pic!emo sial but dont know why i am emoing

We went to wangsawalk mall and had our dinner at BBQ, watch Thor and that movie wasnt great at all, must kicked that fella butt who suggest me to watch Thor in the first place. Reached home around 10pm , bathe , tired and doze off

14th
Woke up late and was raining, our bukit bintang and Skybar plan cancel , instead we went to Klang Bukit Tinggi Jusco and did our shopping. For the first time we came across buy 1 free 3! wait for no time, we grab those item and pay rm15. In the end of the day, we bought the same ear ring, singlets , necklace and top.
Had our dinner at pasta mania with Trishal's friend , Ruben
He fetch us home and we had drinks at Sheeperdo,
I ordered Tequila sunrise and Trishal ordered Iquawa
He introduce the reggae music to us
Something different that i myself have not really listen to it
Realize something after knowing Ruban
Life is short, appreciate what you have now.
Love now, OR love never :)

15th May 2011
Woke up late again and we went to Amcorp mall at PJ
Gosh, i'm blinded again with all the accessories in flea market
End up buying 3 pairs of vintage ear rings and 2 rings for myself
bought 2 tops and a scarf for mummy
and a cup cake recipe book for myself to start baking
I have this thing for cup cakes since ages but never bother to start one
At night, had this amazing nasi lemak and thosai with trishal's family and her neighbor with their cute baby.

16th May 2011
Leaving Klang early in the morning , Trishal's dad made for me prataa, when am still asleep like a pig! oh God, such a pig i am. Lovely prataa with auntie's chicken sambal. Had two prataas and am full for the whole day.

Boarded train to central at 11.30am and reached central around 1am to get my tickets. Bought my ticket for the 3pm train to Bukit Mertajam and reached around 9.20pm. 2 hours in Kl central while waiting for my train and met few people along the way, chic chat with this girl from BM who is an IT graduate , she share some experience and now she is working with dell.

Later on, heard somebody called my name' Hey cat!!" from the back and i dint realize it is Josh.Dint expect to meet him at central and bid Goodbye to him who is on the way back to Sabah with his friend to the airport.

Awesome trips and Thank you so much darling trishal, uncle and auntie for the wonderful treat.